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A Little Faith

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The Creation of Adam by  Michelangelo One day, one of my good friends and I were discussing music and my friend wanted me to look up a fairly famous rapper named Hopsin. Apparently, he has seven songs titled “The Ill Mind of Hopsin” My friend wanted me to specifically look up the 7th song titled “seven”. A little background that my friend informed me was that Hopsin was once friends with a famous Christian rapper with the rap name Lacrae. He told me that Hopsin once found Christ and apparently was a follower of God. He told me that in his last song, he was leaving Christianity. So, as I listened to the song, I sunk in my chair and felt a very heavy burden upon my shoulders. Hopsin is very angry. He is confused and the entire song is what he wants to say to God. It is extremely vulgar and blasphemous. He begins to discuss how he became a Christian but afterwards, people began to think he was a sellout. After he made mistakes, he felt completely humiliated by the conviction he ha

A Sense of Narcissism

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(“Narcissus” by Caravaggio)   "‘I love myself.’ Have you ever said that? It's alright if you have; I won't think any differently about you." I just finished a lot of my school work and it’s pretty late at night, so my apologies for possibly coming off a little crazy. But hey, who doesn't like a little crazy in their life now and then? If you, the reader, were looking for my completely biased opinion on a specific topic, well you came to the right place! What is Narcissism? The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders defines Narcissism as, "A pervasive pattern of grandiosity (in fantasy or behavior), need for admiration, and lack of empathy, beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts" Are you thinking of someone you know when you read the definition? I bet you can think of one person. Maybe it’s you? I'm just kidding, we wouldn't dare shine a bad light upon ourselves. The point is that this is a mental

Reflect

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(Stapleton Park near Pontefract by John Atkinson Grimshaw ) I guess I can start with telling you, the reader, this is just a rant. A lot has been on my mind lately and I can't seem to shake them off. I know once you read this you will have some grand questions and answers for me which I am really looking forward to hear. I want to hear them all. Not only ones that sound good, or look pretty on the surface. I am having struggles on the definition of friends. I don't know why I put so much into my friends. I always love having friends because I hate being alone, but recently some friends haven't really been there. Unfortunately, it isn't one person in particular. Lately, I have just felt as if people are letting me down, or I am letting people down. I feel like I can't say what one person is doing wrong because as soon as I tell them, they will point out a flaw in myself. I didn't point out what you were doing was wrong to hurt you, but to do the exact oppos

The Delusional

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(Son of Man by  RenĂ© Magritte) Couple of weeks back I was running errands in Fayetteville when I ran into one of my old flings. She was happy to see me and we did the typical small talk, asking each other how life has been and so on. After our awkward small talk, she walks away and turns around and says, "hope to see you soon". Of course, that night I went to her facebook (since I didn't have her number anymore) to message her to maybe grab dinner, coffee, or maybe see a movie to "catch up". As I sat on her facebook, I just stared at the empty message and saw the previous messages I had sent her. The message right above the one I sent was, "Hey it was good seeing you today, would you like to maybe meet up and talk more?" As I scrolled up, I notice I have sent her these messages before, and she either ignored them completely, or just made some poor excuse. After reading all these messages before I had a revelation. I've done this before. I'

The Pancake Parable

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Once upon a time, there was a tribe named the pancake tribe. The tribe was known for their delicious light fluffy pancakes. They had really good pancakes. The tribe's pancakes were their main form of business. Even though the pancakes were very delicious, they were very bad for you and they would make you sick. The chief of this tribe demanded that everyone must eat the pancakes that were being made for them. People of the tribes were now being made to eat these pancakes that would make them sick. People would sneak out of the tribe and tell the other tribes about these awful demands by the chief. One day another tribe was hearing about the terrors of the pancake tribe. This tribe began rallying up other tribes to discuss what the chief of the pancake tribe was doing to his people. Eventually, all the tribes began forming rallies, and groups to stop the tyranny. All the rallying tribes would begin to wear little buttons with a picture of pancakes having a large red x marked acr

You cannot (re)do.

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(Early Childhood by Donald Zolan) Things have really changed for me lately. Instead of writing about my theories of children movies or me complaining on me being in the dreadful friend zone from my last post, I have come to the conclusion that this post will just be literally what is on my mind for the time being (which isn't that the whole purpose of this blog?) This first month of 2014 hasn't been the smoothest since the last month of last year was quite eventful. December wasn't a good month. I would get into more detail, but lets be honest here, you, (the reader) are already dealing with my poor grammar rules, the last thing you want is me complaining about is how "awful" my life was the last month. The thing is that I have a wonderful life. I have a good paying job, wonderful friends, new group of people I am enjoying life with, and my path to my career is underway. I have one thing missing but I am not ready for that "thing" at this time, and